Sometimes, I don’t know why I did it. It makes me so angry and I tell myself that I was duped into it. but that is really not the truth. I really do know, I just have to think and remind myself, why I did it. I decided to take….a programming course. I am not sure why I did because I know it is really, really hard for my brain to think that way. I am scared that I am going to fail the class. I tell myself that I will never make it. Yet, there is a sprig of hope in all of this.

There are and will continue to be times on this Earth where I will be pushed and stretched and even at my age, discover new talents and abilities in myself. This is true, even though its scary and it takes real back-bending effort to unearth those abilities. Hey, I could have couch-surfed for another several months during this pandemic, watching reruns of The Big Bang Theory but I felt a strong call to give this a try. I am not telling anyone they should try programming or anything I felt called to do it. I do want to encourage you to prayerfully consider something that will stretch and scare you, especially if you have time on your hands. I say, “prayerfully” as I believe that the Lord wants us to use the abundance that He has given everyone to its fullest extent on this Earth.

Sometimes I read Bible stories and I think, ‘Oh I could have done what he or she did easy!” I may have been able to, that does not mean that there are still things I cannot do easy. For me, dealing with sicknesses or even death or not having a lot of money is not a big challenge, though of course, it makes me very sad and worried. I have heard it said that there are more people who are scared of failure than there are people afraid of death! Taking this programming class is something I need faith and hope in doing.

Thankfully, the Lord knows those challenges that take me to the end of my rope, more than I do. When these challenges are in my life, I have to remember that His grace is sufficient for me and that He is ready to give what I cannot get on my own. During those times, I feel sad for those who do not know that God has grace, strength, hope and love for these times. I also feel sad for those who dont believe that the Lord is even there to see them through. Challenge Him to show you His grace and provision in these times!

Isaiah 40:28-31 ²⁸Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. ²⁹He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. ³⁰Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; ³¹but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

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